I'm sitting here thinking while we are watching this stupid movie. Why the fuck am I here? Why am I wasting my time with you if you don't really enjoy my company? I know your mouth says differently but your mind could care less. Why do you waste your time on me? Cause your bored? Its something to do? I wish you could just be honest with me.. don't be affraid to hurt me.
I would respect that you at least had the balls to tell me something straight forward for once. With out taking the time to talk your self out of saying what you really want to. I know instead of saying "we shouldn't have sex anymore" what you really wanted to say was "Lets leave each other alone". Part of me thinks the dream I had of you just walking away in the rain without saying good-bye is just a fragment of the reality of our friendship.
Truth is Suhas, I'm leaving soon. I do care about you I really do... but I'm starting to question myself. Why do I still give a shit? Its usually so easy for me to shove people away but you... why the fuck do I still give a shit? I'm only angry at myself for this. It feels like a weakness and its killing me about it. Someone just rip out this feeling so I can move on with my life. Please and Thank you!
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